“Be still, and know that I am God…” Psalm 46:10
Be still. I WANT that. When was the moment I stopped taking the time for it? I can’t remember, but I know I need to start again and make it a regular part of my day. I want to say that I can blame it on summer and the lack of routine and schedules, but that’s not really accurate. I DO think it’s worse in the summer, but somehow, I let those quiet, peaceful moments of comfort, growth and joy begin to take a back burner to life, long before summer.
I scramble through my days, doing the next thing, being sure all the ducks are in a row and getting everything done. The list of “do’s” is always changing, but the goal always seems to be the same. Do more, do better, get done. But, nothing is EVER done. I’m not satisfied with how it’s going and I wake up the next day with a greater resolve to do more, do better, get done. It hit me this morning that I understand the first part of Psalm 46:10, remarkably well. I mean, I really get it. I just ignore it. I always intend to do it. I just need to get one more thing finished and then I’ll “have the time” to be still. I rush through my days, getting seemingly less and less organized — able — capable, the more I do. I always do a quick “shout out” to God along the way. I pray in the midst of just about everything I’m doing. I just do it on the run; making it, and God, the second priority, behind whatever “important” project I need to finish. I never really slow down to listen for Him, just bombard Him with me. I’m a mess.
It occurred to me this morning, that I have been scrambling though life ignoring the rest of that verse — “…and KNOW that I am God.” The reason He wants us to be still is so we really “get it” –HE’S God. I spend so much time trying to get through life on my own steam, getting things done. I’m one of those Type “Whatever the Letter Is” people who would rather do everything herself, than ask for help, so I can be sure it gets done “correctly”. I know, sick and wrong. 🙂 The problem is, that I have been ignoring the rest of Psalm 46:10, because God might not “do it” the way I want to. If I am still, and really spend that time to know Him and what He wants for me, I might not want what HE decides. ( I hate it when I GET to know myself better and I turn out stinkin’. -lol- It’s so much easier not to look.) HE’s God. No matter how hard I work, how fast I go, how much I “accomplish”, it will never be as good as what He could have done through me, if I had been paying attention. HE is God. His agenda is the one that counts and very little on mine has much eternal impact. I need to get back to “being still”.
How do YOU do it? I mean consistently? I have those times where I will get up every morning thinking about and longing for the quiet time, where I can just be in the Word and rest for a moment in what God brings to me through it. I grow and get excited about what I’m learning and seeing from a new perspective. I love those times. They can last for days or even weeks — and then, something happens that upsets the routine and I miss a morning, and then the next and before you know it, I’m scrambling through life willy-nilly, again; and can’t seem to find the way to slow things down. Am I the ONLY one on my knees asking forgiveness for this same old sin, over and over again? Does anyone else struggle with taking time for that body, mind and spirit renewing, fresh look at life, that put’s things in perspective and gives you focus — that helps you see God’s plan, in spite of your own agenda?
What’s your quiet time routine? How do you get back to it when you slip into a “scrambling” pattern? Do you have a secret for consistency? I would love to hear from some of you how you “are still” and what it brings to your life.